it's a little after 930a and i feel like i didn't get any sleep at all. i feel like i'm gonna have such a hard time getting started today. i need coffee, but i'm out of filters and sugar and i don't have any money! bitch! sometimes i just can't make it without my coffee and i'm feeling like today might be one of those days! oh boy, hubby, watch out! i wish i could just lay back down and go back to sleep for about 4 hours and dream about winning the social security case we've been fighting for the last 2 1/2 years. it'll be so nice to be normal again and have a little money in our pockets. just a little. it'll be good to live instead of simply exist. just existing and watching life go by around me is like being a ghost. i can see all this happening around me but i can't touch it or be a part of it. i can only watch. sad huh? if hr3548 passes this week, i just might be able to make my car payment this month. i can't see losing 2 cars in a space of a month. that would absolutely depress me. i'm still getting over my platinum being taken away. this economy is a trip. those republicans that delayed the bill for a month are heartless, greedy bastards that act like they have to pay for the extension out of their own pockets. they have no idea what it's like to have no toilet paper, no soap, no laundry soap, very little food, rent's due, there's no gas in the car and there's no money in sight. they have no idea what it is to have a doctor appointment 2 states away and no gas to get there. they don't know what it feel like to see people coming and they act like they don't see you because they don't want you to ask them for any money. they have no idea what it's like to be told a stupid lie right to your face. that's what they've been doing to us. wondering where the money for an unemployment extension is going to come from yet they'll give billions to banks and shit that ran this country into the ground anyway. greedy bastards. this is not welfare i'm asking for. it's money that i worked and deposited into an insurance account for this purpose. i haven't worked in over 2 years and i've collected unemployment intermittently at best. it's just not right. wall street can simply put their hands out and say "i want" and they get. i do that and it's like "oh wait, we don't have that kind of money!" BULLSHIT!!! i just feel like complaining this morning and this seems like the perfect platform. no one to talk back and throw off my train of thought.
well, i guess i got it all off my chest. i better start getting dressed and getting ready to go to another doctor appointment 40 miles away.

L8R!!